Ok, so I finally got a hold of Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium. I hadn't heard anything about it, really. I just put a hold on it at the library and waited my turn and ta da! It's my turn. We watched it tonight with the kids. I really, really loved this movie! It's the first movie in a LONG time that I have watched that is ABSOLUTELY clean!!! Yea! Also, the kids loved it. Well, Charles did fall asleep part way through, but that is because he was tired, not because he didn't like it. Kaylee told me it was her favorite, which means, of course, that she also enjoyed it. Even Louis laughed a few times and enjoyed it, and THAT is saying something. I loved it. I want to watch it again right now, but my eyes can't handle anymore tears. Yes, folks, I cried my eyes out! I know, laugh it up. I just couldn't help it. If you haven't seen the movie yet you may not want to read on, it may spoil it........................
Ok, so I tried to figure out later why I was so upset by Mr. Magorium's departure. I was sad all along, but the flood gates opened when he quoted Shakespeare and he was just so non-chalant about the whole thing. "He dies." I am Mahoney. I am stuck. I am not exactly sure what this block of wood can do. I used to really believe it was worth something and I lived for all those wonderful things. Then one day, it seems, I looked again and it was just a silly block of wood. I am afraid I may be selling my magical store because I don't believe I can do it anymore and I will settle for something else, just because. I can't really place who Mr. Magorium is. Many faces flash in front of me, and the thought of losing any of them right now is frightening and painful. I think the one that most readily comes to mind and gives me an empty feeling in my gut is my dear grandmother. I know that scientifically she isn't supposed to be able to live forever, but sometimes I believe that if I wish hard enough, or look needy enough, she will live forever. I am not ready for her to depart. I also really don't forsee this anytime in the forseeable future, but again, I'm not being completely realistic and whether it were one day or one million more, if I have to let her leave me, I won't be ready. On that same thought, it really isn't just this grandma, but ALL my grandparents. Meaning, my dad's mom, my mom's mom, Louis' grandma, and my grandpa. I have been so fortunate. I have only had to watch one grandfather depart. But, it was so very painful, that I don't ever want to experience it again. Maybe this really has nothing to do with my emotional outburst. Perhaps I just needed a good reason to cry and let things out. Whatever the reason, I had an opportunity to think about a few things. What potential do I have that I am not able to see? Have I become a "just" woman? Will I be as ready to finish my life as wonderfully as Mr. Magorium because I have made the most of it? And not in the sense that I did all the things in the world I thought I should do for myself, but doing all the right things, living a full, happy life, accomplishing the things I really always hoped to accomplish. Will I be able to be brave when the time comes for my dearest loved ones to depart? Will I be able to tell all of the wonderful lives they lived, even though I may be sad for a while? I hope so. I guess that is all I can do. Hope and believe and keep on going.
6 years ago
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wow...i didn't even come close to reading that far into the movie. in fact, i think i was only able to watch bits and pieces (welcome to motherhood...right?). SO, thank you for sharing your review and giving me something to think about today. i might have to watch it again sometime when both my boys are asleep with a large box of kleenex. (;
ok, so I only saw about half of the movie and I just haven't gotten back to it - but I own it so it's ok. Anyway, I have those same thoughts about my own life so I have no right to preach to you, but I just wanted to let you know that you're much better than you think you are. At some point you'll be able to look back and see all the things you've accomplished. Sometimes it's just hard to see what's going on when you're still in the middle of all the activity. My mom always has to remind me that right now, I'm a mother and that's what's most important. Everything else can wait. And I think the reason motherhood is so hard is that you have figure out a balance between helping your children create an identity and keeping yours intact. To me, motherhood is about selflessness and it's not always a task I'm thrilled with. Because seriously, can I just get 5 minutes peace?
Anyway, sorry for the novel. I just wanted to say that I've felt those same things. I'm looking around my house at all the unfinished projects and I wonder what I actually do all day. It's pretty overwhelming, but just so you know, you're not alone. Right now I'm looking at a silly block of wood too.
We loved that show too. It is sad though. Death is NEVER fun to think about no matter the person involved.
I saw the movie a few weeks a go and we loved, all of us! I would totally own it! I didn't get the message as well as you did but I really enjoy the movie, and don't worry, I cried too.
I wish my granparents (My mom's parents) were alive, I miss them everyday very bad. I never imagined my life would change so much when they died. But I know one day I will see them again, thanks to atonement of Jesus-Christ, how blessed we are!
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